Self-Obsession As a Base State

Why am I so obsessed with myself? My image! I have deleted social media (for the most part) and tried consciously to moderate how much I value other people’s judgement, but still I find myself anxiously worrying about, primarily: how attractive I am to girls. I think everyone has their own version of this. Recently it has been been hitting really hard because I have been losing my hair. It sucks. I makes me feel so much less than.

Then I watch the sunset, look up at the moon, remember the true infinitesimally small scale the speck of dust in the vast universe our whole planet even is, and I am able to breathe a sigh of relief, even if just for a moment. Clearly I am still not perfect.